Friday, November 25, 2005
; dumpbed .
im some kind of emotional these few days, & i can't find the cure or wadsoeva tu it. )= nah, i dunoe. i feel like T.T almost over every single lil thing i go thru, or i listen to, or i watch or even tink. i knoe, wad i tink of is .. jus, someone. dat someone, who made me grow up, learn to accept how things are, accept the fate all these. dat someone who could make my heart jus ' break ' like this. and what's so stupid abt nw is hw i can't forget, him & those memories.
it has been like 1yr 3 months since i liked him & 8 mths likdat since i last went out wid him. z, 15/3 was the day i went out wid him. he jus gave me a very gud feeling. comfy&easy. it's harda describe aniwae, but going out wid dat special someone and my frens is jus definitely different.
supposed to catch a movie dat day at cwp. but thinking tad i watched a movie once in the noon alr, he said no when i said i could actually watch it once over again wid him. the movie was howl's moving castle. hm, walked ard wid him. & i was jus feeling darn happy in there, in my heart(:
we walked and walked. & we left for jp by mrt. durin' e trip, he was jus standing infront of me. ^ den, one uncle. dunoe wad e hell. come stand in between us -.- and i walked away tu his side. and we found another place to stand(:
i stil rmbed hw he showed me the cds he wanna buy. and telling me all those nice songs he had listened to. n dere aft, he bought one at cd-rama. i asked him wad time he wan tu go home. & he asked me back. i said ' any time u are going home '. and he said ' wad if i don't '. wells, dat simply makes me give him a damn broad smile(:
we went to ath place for dinner. we had mac. sat on e bus, side by side. i feel like sitting on forever. well, who don't ? z, reached the place. n we started eating. dere aft, he walked me to somewhr ard my hse. im so thankful dat the place we were at, and my hse. was far. and dere wasnt any bus.
we walked on for ard 10mins, chatting on and on. it jus seems dat we can't run out of topics to talk abt. but of cos, happy moments doesn't last long. i can't change anything. we jus lost the close contact we had. & he stil loved the ger. im not angry. but i jus regretted nt cherishing those chances i had before 15/3.
nvr meant to be, and wil nv be.
time wil make me forget everything.
from last yr,
till nw, which is alr nov.
im not going to post anymore things abt him anymore. wadeva i canot forget or feeling sad OVER HIM. frens help me check out my posts after this yups ? if i post another single lil thing abt him or sad things sad memories wid him, when we dun belong tgt. i allow all of you to bite me, scold me, hit me and even slap me. (: i mean it.
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