i so wished now wasn't the exam period. den i could get back home, prepare myself and go and visit ah ma at the hospital everyday. because now is the exam period, i've to come home, make my own lunch, and settle myself to study or just sleep. so much stuffs missing from my life suddenly. everyday come home, it's always so quiet. nobody's home. i'm so not used to it. & i'm missing ah ma so so much. mum come always come back at ard 10pm these days and whenever i hear anything abt ah ma, i just feel so very sad. she told me how ah ma actually cried because of the pain . . and today, mum told me ah ma scratched herself til she bled T.T