was supposed to go with brother to kbox today. but as soon as i said 7pm, he called his friends out alr. and off he goes, so very blah lah. cabbed down to je to take my passport photo in my stupid school uniform so as to make my idiot ezlink card. i didn't wear my uni to je of cos, i jus brought it there and put it on. and so, the making of ezlink card was 19 bucks -.- how expensive. anw, went for dinner at jec and then saw brother & his friends there also. so wanted to go with them to the arcade, but i don't like big group of guys x.x yaya, so i ended my day with some uber nice durians :D

me: can just .. dun say already ? if you dun wan dad to get involved, then don't say alr. for this problem, you said before u dun wan dad to get involved, cos even big aunt dun even get uncle involved alr, u also dun wan dad get involved. Then why stil say ?

i was so very sad upon hearing all these. it's because i still want .. my perfect.. happy family, then i said all those. bringing her family problems into our family will only cause disputes, conflicts. isn't it ? because she kept saying all of my uncles - her brothers were of no use, always wanting money, pushing responsibilities. all these are the causes for father being more involved in my ahma's incident. and now, even my father is involved in the insurance stuff.

anw, i'm not going to care about it alr. you can be very fan, very angry very simi, just WHATEVER. i so much wanted to just.. make your load lighter, make everything better. but in your eyes, i'm still a small girl. simi also duno how to think. so even if what i said before so many times serves a purpose, you will still think .. i duno. so, forget it. i shall stay as your good small girl.. and not say anymore. no matter what, i'm stil just 14, not even 15 yet.. jus an immature kid you stil needa bring up.